Thursday, February 26, 2015

things i love

Jesus
(the obvious things, family)
laughing, specifically taking a drink of water right before you start to laugh and then you start to laugh even harder because you already know you're doomed so what the heck, might as well
organizing
rearranging my bookshelf
listening to good music
having friends
making art
good weather
petrichor
looking at pretty things
good teachers
reading a book so good you can't put it down until you finish it
understanding the world, and that the world does not run simply on science or on arts, but that each is a way of understanding the same thing
giving compliments
baking cookies

Wednesday, February 25, 2015

in case you want to know who i am

I think you can tell a lot about a person from their music. Or at least it's interesting. I don't know if I can revive this blog, but I just had this idea, so... here you go.

Lately my Spotify most listened to albums are What A Terrible World, What A Beautiful World; The Crane Wife; All This Bad Blood; The King is Dead; Save Rock and Roll; Smoke + Mirrors; Folie a Deux; I'm Wide Awake, It's Morning; and American Beauty/American Psycho. Quite the mix, I know. (That's The Decemberists, Bastille, Fall Out Boy, Imagine Dragons, and Bright Eyes.)

I've also been enjoying Carolina Chocolate Drops and Josh Woodward, and of course the Avett Brothers, Mumford & Sons, Regina Spektor, and The Mountain Goats are old favorites.

Oh, and also whatever Mr. Koric is blasting on the smartboard speakers during Intro to Business. Love it.

Saturday, August 23, 2014

The Beginning of a Story

The Third-Floor Bedroom
He was an only child. He always had been, and always would be. His mother had died only moments after her final request--that he be called Henry.
Henry lived a relatively solitary, but content life. His mother’s family was wealthy, and her estate was left to him and his father. Henry’s grandfather (for whom he was named) had been a first-generation American, having migrated from Germany, and had a stroke of luck when he opened a mail delivery service, using pigeons as his carriers. Everyone knew that he had a natural gift for dealing with animals. What they did not know was that he was really a magician.
Henry loved the birds in his room. They were not real birds, of course, but somehow they always seemed to comfort him at night, when he was sad. They were painted with gold on his walls, long ago, by his grandfather. Having learned to read at a very early age out of boredom and loneliness, Henry loved to visit his grandfather’s library and read the old stories about the pigeons that carried mail. No grownups ever told Henry stories out loud at bedtime except for his nurse, Maria, and even hers did not compare to his grandpa’s stories of those seemingly magical creatures that were able to carry messages far, and wide, and faithful.
It all began when someone left the window open. It was probably Maria, always trying to get Henry to go outside. She said that some fresh air would help Henry get some meat on his bones. Henry would always think, “why would I want meat on my bones? Is Maria planning to eat me?” (He knew Maria meant well, but he often made up stories for himself about what she was plotting to do next.) He silently walked to the window and looked out. Maybe Maria was a little bit right; it was very tranquil on the lawn today, but Henry stood on tiptoe and extended his small arms as high as they would go in order to reach the top of the window, and pull down with all of his might to close it with an impressive-sounding crash.
Henry stood in front of the window for a moment and considered his reflection. (Maria did not allow mirrors, saying, “I will not raise a self-centered child!”) He had feathery, golden hair, a round face with healthy cheeks (despite his otherwise relatively gaunt figure), and blue eyes as deep as the ocean, like his mother. Sometimes he liked to imagine that any strength he did have came from his eyes; since the ocean was so strong, his eyes must be, too. Even his hardly-present father agreed with Henry about this.
Suddenly, Henry was startled by something behind him in his reflection. He spun around to face his bedroom wall with the golden birds painted on it. One was missing! Having the naturally vibrant imagination one finds in a five-year-old, Henry gasped, “it must have flown out my window!”
Henry heard a small, golden voice in his head. “Yes, she did. Turn around.” Cautiously, he turned to see another winged creature peeling off of his bedroom wall.
Startled, he jumped back. “Please, don’t you leave me, too!” he cried.
Shh,” said the voice in his head. “If you make a ruckus, that old hag Maria will hear! You can talk to me inside your head, too. You have the gift like your grandfather did.”
“How? What gift?”
“Just try it. Think golden, and I’m sure it will come to you,” said the voice.
“Okay,” said Henry. It seemed to work; the bird looked pleased.
“Very good,” it said. “My name is Bartholomew. Now that we have that down, we had best be on our way. Would you mind opening that window again?” Henry, not knowing what else to do, padded back over to the window and opened it. Bartholomew appeared to stretch his wings, then flew out of the window.
“Wait! Please don’t leave!” Henry said in his head with all of his might.
“You’re supposed to follow me. Didn’t your father tell you anything?” said Bartholomew. “Think golden. You’ll know what to do.”
Henry found himself plummeting to the ground from his third-floor bedroom window. “Help!” he cried.
GOLDEN!” said Bartholomew. Henry concentrated. He found his arms extending. Somehow he caught the air and began soaring upwards to the height of the bird. It would have been a strange sight: a golden bird and a flying, golden boy.
“Where are we going?” asked Henry.
“To find someone,” said the bird. “Just follow me.”
“Did you know my mother?”
Silence, for a moment. Henry strained his ears. There had to be a reply. “Yes. We all knew her. When she was a girl. She lived with her father, sort of  like you do,” Bartholomew answered. “She was lonely, without a mother. So, your grandfather made us for her.”
“He made you?!” Henry was beginning to feel excited. He didn’t feel alone.
“Yes, didn’t your father tell you? He should have known.”
“No,” said Henry in a small voice. His father was not always the most tender and loving, but he was still his father. Henry felt sad for a moment, but then remembered that he was flying. “I’m flying!” he said excitedly, unintentionally changing the subject.
“Yes, you are,” Bartholomew said. “You will remember this day forever. I remember the first day I flew. It was the day your grandpa made me. Your mother was there, too.” Henry did not know what he should say next. This was the most he had ever heard about his mother.
They did not talk any more until they had reached their destination: a solitary, huge tree in the middle of a field, in The Middle of Nowhere, America. As they approached the tree, Henry could see that it was hollow. This tree did not seem lonely, even though it stood alone. Henry looked up and saw hundreds of shimmering, gold, winged things perched, asleep, in its branches. He whispered, “are those--”
“Yes,” Bartholomew answered. “They are like me. And, there is who we are looking for!” One of the birds, apparently the only other one awake, swooped down from the branches and landed gracefully--goldenly--on the ground in front of Bartholomew.
“Is he the one?” Her voice seemed golden inside Henry’s head, too.
“Yes. Henry, this is Georgina,” Bartholomew explained. “Well, now that we’re all here, it is time.”
“Time for what?” asked Henry.
“That’s why we need you,” Georgina began. “I guess the simplest way to explain is just… snap your fingers. And remember--think golden.”
You may be thinking that five-year-olds don’t know how to snap their fingers, which is true. But you must remember: Henry knew how to do many things that most five-year-olds cannot. In fact, Henry had mastered snapping one rainy day alone in his grandfather’s library. So, he snapped his fingers and thought as goldenly as he possibly could.
Wonder filled his eyes. He felt like the ocean. The most magnificent thing he had ever seen was the sight of hundreds of golden flying things descending from this majestic tree, and perfectly lining up on the ground before him. “Wow,” he said aloud. “Now what should I do?”
“Give the command!” instructed Bartholomew.
“The command to what?” Henry was simultaneously extremely disoriented, confused, and having the most amazing day of his life.
“To deliver, of course! We have years to catch up on!” said Georgina, like it was the most obvious thing possible.
“His father has not told him anything,” whispered Bartholomew to Georgina.
“Oh,” said she. “Well, you just say, ‘deliver,’ dear.”
“Deliver!” was Henry’s command.
Suddenly, the tree began overflowing, somehow, with mail. The birds began to each choose a piece, and each flew off in a different direction, automatically knowing where to go. Bartholomew carefully chose a letter addressed to The Little Boy in the Third-Floor Bedroom, Vogel Estate, Almond, New York State, but Henry did not see this. As he began to stretch out his wings in preparation to take off, he was halted by the small golden voice of his master. “Are you going to leave me?” said Henry.
“Of course not,” said Bartholomew. “Follow me.”
For the whole flight, Henry made notes of landmarks and ways he could remember to find his way back to the not-lonely tree. He was, after all, the most intelligent and resourceful five-year-old who ever was. Henry became so absorbed in remembering how he would return to the tree that he did not realize to where they were flying.
    ***
Henry woke up the next day, neatly tucked into his own bed in his own pajamas. He had had the most wonderful dream last night, in which everything was golden, and he was very strong. Henry sat up, rubbed his eyes, and surveyed his third-floor bedroom. It was exactly as he had left it the night before, and all of his favorite painted golden birds were in their places on his wall. Or was it?
There was something on his dresser that was never there before, but seemed familiar. It was a letter. It was addressed to him. He opened it.
Inside, it read:
Well done, my Henry. It is just beginning. You do not have to be alone. Take care of the birds for me. You will be golden. You will be strong like the sea. And you will not be alone. It is your turn now. Think golden, and you will know what to do.
I wish I could be with you now, but this is all I can send. Do not be sad!
All of my love,
Mommy

A happy tear rolled down Henry’s cheek, and he smiled for the first time. He was not alone in his third-floor bedroom. He was not alone.

Wednesday, July 16, 2014

Vessel

And my favorite one, too. I got it as an eighth grade graduation present from an awesome person. For me it was a reminder to be like the clay, to be malleable, to come out of the fire [of high school] stronger, and to be a vessel. Unfortunately my favorite jar broke (which I hope isn't a bad omen). But I fixed it with gold.

I got inspired by reading about the Japanese art of Kintsugi ("golden joinery"). (However, I couldn't afford to be authentic, and I didn't really feel like using poison ivy goo as an adhesive anyway.) Obviously I'm not a Japanese potter and it turned out really bumpy and not as pretty as it had the potential to be, but at least it's prettier than just glue.

So I sat here for three days, listening to The Mountain Goats and The Avett Brothers and Regina Spektor and being kind of angry and kind of happy along with the music, which flooded my thoughts as I did a lousy job gluing the shards with the wrong kind of glue.

"Stay like the clay" is what my wandering mind wanders back to. (This reminds me of the Tolkien quote: "Not all that glitters is gold, and not all who wander are lost." What a nice idea, that one could wander in one's own head.) Be malleable. Come out of the fire stronger. A vessel is meant to be full, to hold something, to carry it, and to have a purpose. You'll break, and you'll have to be pieced back together. Hopefully whoever picks up your pieces puts you back together with gold. You may not be stronger, but you don't have to hide your brokenness. You were taken to the Earth, and to it you shall return. But until you do, you don't have to hide your brokenness.

Tuesday, January 21, 2014

Georgia's Book

Today makes the weekend extra long. In St. Louis when it snows, people simply can't function as humans. It's too bad, because I was actually looking forward to school today. I was supposed to visit the high school I'm probably going to.

But it's okay, since because the weekend was already long, we went to my grandma's and helped her rearrange her living room. We threw stuff away and cleaned out cabinets, finding a bunch of grandpa's stuff. I never knew he collected stamps so avidly. Hundreds of them, full albums.

The best thing, though, is this book grandma gave me that he bought at an auction. Crown Jewels.

It says: "Presented to Georgia, By Ma & Pa, Dec. 25th 1888." I like to think that Georgia read it many times. She fell asleep with her favorite Christmas present almost every night, except for the nights Ma came to tuck her in and gently took the book and put it on the washstand.
When Georgia had her own children, she read to them from her Christmas present. They always loved it, but when Georgia passed away, the book sat in a closet a victim of silverfish for many years. Then when someone finally found it, they obviously didn't remember it was grandma Georgia's favorite book and sold it to my papa in an auction. He took good care of it. Grandma put four-leaf clovers in it whenever she found them.

I like looking at things that are older than I am. I think it's good for perspective.

 
This leaf is from a tree that doesn't exist anymore. Just think of all this book holds that aren't words.
 
It makes me think of Ray Bradbury's Fahrenheit 451 I just finished reading. I like at the end when he meets the people that are "bums on the outside, libraries inside." I have found, people (and books) can come in all kinds of shapes.
 
I think Georgia would be happy that her Christmas present wasn't just a present for her.
 
 
If books could be happy, I think this one would be. It gets the spot next to Glinda.



Monday, January 6, 2014

Be Magnificent

I think I figured it out. That is, ahem, why everyone loves the Doctor. Why I love the Doctor. (I'm sorry, if you're not farmiliar with Doctor Who, because this is not going to make sense, but you might enjoy reading it anyway [I hope].)

He's a good man. He's just so good.

He's a Doctor. It's in the name, the name he chose. Never cowardly or cruel. Never give up. Never give in.  He's kept that promise for a thousand years. He doesn't leave the ones he loves, because he's got no where to go, just running.

And he loves everyone. He believes in everyone. There has never been a human being that wasn't important, and he loves them all. He'd sacrifice himself in an instant if it meant that he could stop a genocide or save the Earth, the Universe, all of space-time, the future, the past, a single human that thinks she doesn't matter.

Everyone loves the Doctor because he tells you that you can be magnificent, that you are magnificent. He makes you feel that way because even though he's a thousand years old, he's been protecting the Earth, the future, your future, all that time.

And he is magnificent.

(Also it might have something to do with the fact that he's hilarious and nerdy and lovable and adorable and has a freaking TARDIS. But that doesn't sound as good.)

Sunday, December 22, 2013

Knowing

I've done some thinking and decided that I'm excited. Like, yes, because it's Christmas and that is SUPER exciting and I might write about that later, but that's not the kind of excited I am specifically talking about in this context. I am excited because I have been thinking. Like, really thinking. About lots of stuff, and maybe I'll tell you later, but that is going to take a lot of work (and typing, and time, and more thought. And reading on your part. And sorry that I am putting sentences inside of parentheses that aren't outside of a sentence.).

I am a nerd. Not just because I enjoy obscure or simply nerdy things, but because I just get really nerded-out. Like, excited. All of the time. About everything. Especially bowties. “…because nerds like us are allowed to be unironically enthusiastic about stuff… Nerds are allowed to love stuff, like jump-up-and-down-in-the-chair-can’t-control-yourself love it. When people call people nerds, mostly what they’re saying is ‘you like stuff.’ "

Lately I have been endeavoring to think as deeply as I can about everything, and especially to recognize when I am being prompted to do so (namely by teachers). I don't want to be mule-d (anyone? half-assed? no?) about it, either. Like, if I'm going to take the time to think about something for a couple of days, I want it to have an affect on me, and everyone around me.

Sometimes, someone will say something that makes everything I've been trying to fit together just snap into place. (Usually that happens in class. I'm mostly taking about school here.) That's when I get really excited. I can feel my eyes get wide. I think there's even a special excited-grin for the occasion, although I've never caught a mirror when this happens, I know how that excited-grin feels, and I imagine it to be worn with an Augustus Waters fashion.

When that happens, when I get my thinking-excited look on my face, I want people to see it. I want them to see the excited energy like a laser shooting out of my eyes and all of the machinery snapping into place in my head and how fast my heart seems like it's beating and how happy I get when I'm thinking. I want them to think: "what could possibly make her eyes look that way?"

When someone questions you, or when you question yourself, that is how you prove what you know. Sometimes you don't know the specific moment when you prove what you believe and what you believe becomes what you know. Sometimes others don't know when they question you and that causes you to know what you believe, because they didn't even ask a question. Because it's easy to believe what you know, but not nearly as easy to know what you believe.

That's what I'm talking about, that after thinking for days or for weeks, something causes me to question my thoughts in a different way, and then I know what I believe, like the way you fall asleep: slowly, then all at once.

And when I love people, I want it to be the same. It is so hard to love everyone. But it is what we are made for. And when I figure my thoughts out, in that moment, it feels the same as when you love someone. You know, with the sort of love with which you can love anyone. That's what I wish I could constantly emulate, that I would sparkle with love an the excitedness to know, shooting out of me in every direction, for the world to see, until the world is changed and we get to go home.

Wednesday, December 11, 2013

Thoughts

I've been thinking a lot lately. 'Bout stuffs. About humans and our place. I have a lot of thoughts and I'm not going to share them all right now. (Truthfully I am distracting myself from homework for a second because I'm doing math and I'm not exactly sure what all the squiggles are in front of me and I'm thinking and GAH!) But my thoughts are like stars I cannot fathom into constellations. There are so many and they don't all fit together because some aren't the right pieces, the lines don't connect. "And I just want someone to hear what I have so say. And maybe if I talk long enough, it'll make sense."
The conquistadors, I've been learning about them (and thinking about them). Was what they did wrong? Should they get off the hook since what they thought what they were doing was right? No. They were human, and broken like all of us. We are all broken, but that doesn't necessarily take away out capability of doing good things, because humanity is good. Yet man is born to trouble as surely as sparks fly upward. There is always good left in the broken, like ruins of a castle. Broken, but you can still tell what it is and what it once was (and how beautiful it was).
I don't really know what so say or how to say it and I should do homework, but I'm still trying to digest this and play around with it in my head (which makes it really hard to do math, by the way). And maybe if I talk long enough, it'll make sense.

Tuesday, November 26, 2013

... and then I was a Whovian.






I chose the best week possible to start watching Doctor Who. It was on all day and all night all week to celebrate the fiftieth anniversary. I especially enjoyed the Day of the Doctor special. (Don't worry, I did my research before watching it. I always do my research, guys.)

If you can read the Gallifreyan you get the prize of my eternal adoration. (Also if you can read my Gallifreyan, you are really good at reading Gallifreyan.) 

If you have no clue what any of this means, don't feel bad. :)

If you think this is awesome, we should hang out sometime and be nerdy together. 


Saturday, September 14, 2013

School

This school year is pretty great so far. I'm still at the same school, which is really small, so there are only 13 kids. We don't switch classes, either, because a) we don't have to, and b) there is only one classroom anyway. Our classroom is brand-new and very awesome. We are the first class to use it. It is the only classroom upstairs, so that is very nice because everyone leaves us alone. I also like it because there are only 2 grades (7th & 8th [last year there was 4th, 5th, 6th, 7th, AND 8th all together!]) and we don't have to share all the stuff with 4th graders. That really made me mad last year because they were always making things messy and I was like the only person who cleaned stuff up (that is still kind of true, but it's not as bad).

Our classroom also has a Promethean Board, which is like a SmartBoard, only better (I don't know if this is really true because I've never used a SmartBoard, but I believe it because the Promethean Board is pretty cool). The teachers decided to get one since you don't really need all the Montessori materials for Jr. High (Montessori materials are super expensive). It is basically a super fancy projector. That's nice because every time they want to show us something, they don't have to get the projector out because the Board is always set up. (Does that make any sense?)

The other new thing is that we have classroom committees--the Garden Committee, the Building & Grounds Committee, the Store Committee, and the Newspaper Committee. We had to write resumes and cover letters to apply for the committees like jobs. I got accepted to the Newspaper Committee, so now I am working with the other two Editors to start a school newspaper (which we have decided to name The Garden Imperial). Each committee has different responsibilities around the school & classroom, and each committee has certain classroom jobs like taking care of the computers & iPads, washing tables, straightening shelves etc.

I'm really sad that I only get to be with this awesome classroom and all these awesome people I know and love for one more year. I hate thinking about high school. But I must. The world is apparently not a wish granting factory. But, it is really awesome right now, so everything is Okay for the moment.

I've been reading a lot of YA fiction lately. I'll probably get back to some of the classics soon, but I really like reading YA fiction because it makes me excited to be a young adult in this time and place. Every year I seem to be more excited about the fact that I am a person, and I am sure that excitedness may decrease a bit next year when I have a buttload of homework and not enough sleep, but right now, I am excited that I get to be a person and marvel at the majesty of creation and whatnot. I quite like being a person in this time and place.

Friday, September 13, 2013

Sherwood Forest Camp

 This week instead of going to school Wednesday, Thursday, and Friday, I went to camp instead of class. I wasn't skipping school--the teachers planned it. It was so awesome. I am probably going to say "awesome" a lot. That is a word I frequently use. I should reserve it for those times I am actually filled with awe. The definition of humanness is the ability to marvel at the majesty of creation. But it can be a powerful word, and I am rambling.

We left the school at 7:45. The drive to camp took about 2 hours. We got to drive through lots of windy country roads. I love driving on windy country roads. Often they are really beautiful. I taught the people in the car I was in how to play cows, and then we kind of played cows, only there weren't that many cows. I thought we would see more since the camp was right behind a cow farm. There were actually some cows laying next to the road on the gravel road in camp. We had to open & close 2 cow gates. I'm rambling again.

We got to camp around 10. We unpacked everything from the cars and put it away in the cabins. Then we played mafia with the counselors until lunchtime.

I really liked the counselors. They were fun/ny and super nice. I think it would be fun to be a camp counselor or something like that as a summer job. They all thought I looked like a girl version of a guy named Travis who was there during the summer, so that was weird and funny.

Meals are very unique at Sherwood. I really liked the way they do it, though. There is a server and a scraper at each table. The campers set the tables and serve the food. Whoever sits at the right side on the end is the server. The server goes up to the window to get the food, brings it to the table and stuff. They also say grace before every meal (and I learned a few new ones, which will be good for Girl Scouts!).

The scraper is the person who gets to scrape everyone's plates and clean stuff up. The server gets to start "the scraper game." They can use utensils, napkins, whatever, holding them in a certain way, or doing a specific action like waving or standing up. Similar to the way the last person with a spoon in the spoons card game loses, that's how you loose the scraper game. The last person to do the action copying the server is the scraper. Also, if you eat before the server starts eating, you're the scraper. If you spill something, you're the scraper. If you knock a bench over, your whole table has to scrape for the entire dining hall (I guess that one applies more during the summer when there are more people are there. That didn't happen anyway, though.). Once your table has a scraper, everyone counts to three and screams EMMA'S SCRAPER! (Or whoever is scraper. I didn't actually have to be scraper, but I did serve twice.)

Anyway, after lunch we played lots of team-building games outside. My favorite was Rise to the Sun, where one person lays down and everyone else lifts them up. I'm really glad I got to be the person that got picked up, because it was pretty cool. I thought it would be weird with everyone touching me, but once they picked me up, it didn't feel like anyone was. All I could see was the sky, and it was so blue. I think I nearly floated away.

That day we also did a really cool team adventure course thing. It had a couple of activities, like a nature trail with stations along the way. At the first, we had to get everyone through a tire that was hanging up. The tricky part was, you couldn't really touch the tire because there was a stick sitting on top of it that you couldn't knock off or you would have to start over, so you kinda had to lift people through it.

At the next station, we had to get everyone standing on top of a tire because it was an island and we didn't want to get melted by the chocolate acid. I got to have acid proof shoes because there were too many people. I think that one was the hardest.

The next one (and my favorite) was a rope swing. The problem was, there was a square we couldn't step inside because it was a boiling marshmallow swamp. The square was just big enough that we couldn't reach the rope, so we had to make a grappling hook type thing, tying bandanas, jackets, and shoes together (we could only use things we were wearing). If anything fell inside the square, we couldn't get it back. If it was a person, we had to start over. I thought it was fun to swing across.

The last station we did was a tight rope. It was also fun, and there was a rope you could hold on to so it wasn't that hard. The rest of the people who weren't going across had to spot, so it was actually kind of impossible to fall. (Spotting is basically standing behind or beside someone with your hands out to make sure they don't fall).

After that we played 9-square. It is like 4-square, but with 9 squares and instead of bouncing the ball, you have to keep it in the air. There is a pvc pipe thing that defines the squares and I will see if I can find a picture on the internet.


After playing 9-square, we had dinner. I don't even remember what it was now. After dinner we went to the art barn and tie-dyed our shirts. I'm told they always tie-dye at Sherwood. My hands got all green and witchy.

Then, we had a(n intentional) fire. We had s'mores and sang songs. I learned 2 new ones. They are stuck in my head and kind of annoying (but, of course, hilarious. I'll have to teach them to you and get them stuck in your head. You're welcome.)

The next day was the tower day. At Sherwood, they have an awesome 60-foot high tango tower.


(You wear a harness & helmet.) It has 7 (I think) sides to climb up in different ways. My favorite was the pirate swing. I just thought it was more interesting, and definitely more fun than the other ones I did. The last time I climbed up, I went down the zip line. It was kinda scary to have to step off the edge, but then it was amazing! The tower was definitely my favorite thing. I felt so Dauntless. (I also just finished reading Divergent and Insurgent. [I can't wait for Alliegant to come out! Eeeeek!])

After that we played dodge ball and 9-square and then had dinner. I will never forget that dinner. I already forgot what I was eating, but I do remember that at one point I laughed so hard that milk came out my nose. Seriously, I laughed for at least five minutes straight. The thing I was laughing at wasn't even that funny, but it struck me funny at that moment. (I'm laughing about it now just remembering it.) But of course, I had just taken a big long drink of milk. It didn't occur to me at first that the fact that I had a mouthful of milk would be a problem, because I wasn't laughing that hard. Then, I realized I had milk in my mouth, so I tried to swallow it, but then I just started laughing harder and I couldn't stop. Then milk started coming out my mouth and so I laughed even harder and it started coming out my nose. Oh my goodness. It was so awesome. One of the counselors declared that as his new favorite Camp Moment. I agreed. The magic word of the night was milkoutyournose. (There is a magic word at every meal.)

After dinner we played a fun improv-y team game. I was on team Bananarama Squad. I laughed so hard during that game. I'm not even going to try and explain it.

The next day was the last day. We played games outside that morning, dodge ball and 9-square, only with the counselors that time, and it was even more fun. I also laughed a lot during that. I laughed so much at camp. I felt like I really got to know the counselors. I also feel like I know my friends better. I even know myself better.

I really hate leaving camp. I'm always so excited about all of the amazing things I just did and learned and laughed about. I can't take those feelings with me. But I can take the memories of them, and I hope I don't soon forget how much I laughed and how awesome it all was.

Friday, July 26, 2013

14

I am now 14. And therefore, obviously, more awesome than I was before I was 14.

The party was very fun. I am really bad at bowling. But it was fun even though I am very bad at bowling. There was pizza and ice cream cake.

My friends know me so well. They all got me books and index cards & pens. Also washi tape. Awesome.

On my actual birthday, we went bike shopping in the morning. Then we went to PF Chang's for lunch where I had crispy honey chicken and an amazing dessert that had peanut butter in it. Afterwards we went back to the bike place to pick the bike up. When we got home we went for a bike ride.

After riding it a few times, I decided to name her Phyllis. Like in the Flavia de Luce books, Flavia's bike is named Gladys. I think it's so cute.


I invited my friend Lindsey over to help me rearrange my books, since the current arrangement didn't allow space for additions, and I know that she is the kind of awesome person who would actually want to do that.

We had already deshelved my other books and were trying to decide how to organize all of them (we went for alphabetical by the first letter of the author's last name). I picked up one of the new books and said, "hey, I haven't even smelled these yet!" and proceeded to sniff them. "I think this one smells the best," I said, setting the book down. 

"Let me smell," said Lindsey. After a moment she said, "I agree. Fahrenheit 451 definitely smells the best." 

We laughed. We are such dorks. I love that.

Needless to say, now I am reading Fahrenheit 451.

I quite like it so far.

Anyway.

Thanks, guys.

I had an awesome birthday.

Saturday, July 20, 2013

Beautiful Wall Collage

I finished it!
Isn't it TOTALLY AWESOME?!  You can't see everything perfectly, but the stuff I've added to it since that post where I told you about awesome stuff I've been doing is: some bottle cap thingies, the AIA cover I already told you about, a star wheel (the white circle thing), a Looking for Alaska cover (under the a), and a Glinda of Oz cover that I made (I didn't trace it I promise! You can find close up pictures of that on my tumblr.). So yeah!

(Coming up: Beautiful Bookshelf)

Thursday, July 18, 2013

So i joined the swim team...

I guess because I can. I mean, I know how to swim, but I don't know how to
swim, you know? Well, didn't, anyway. I've learned to much already and have only gone to two practices. I can successfully do the breast stroke, the butterfly, freestyle, and the backstroke (although probably not very well). I think the breast stroke is actually the hardest. Pull, breathe, kick, glide. Maybe because I basically taught myself how to do it from watching other people swim and then had to re-learn it, but the butterfly, which I had no clue how to do before, I find surprisingly easy. (Edit: not to say that the butterfly is easy. At all. It was just much easier that I thought it was going to be.)

And I really like coach Larry. He's hilarious.

And I really like it so far.

And I am really kinda proud of myself. I don't try new things that often.

And yeah. Yayyyyy!


(Coming up: beautiful wall collage [when {if} I finish it])

Saturday, July 13, 2013

An Imperial Affliction

The epigraph of one of my favorite books, "The Fault in Our Stars," is from a book called "An Imperial Affliction":

As the tide washed in, the Dutch Tulip Man faced the ocean:
"Conjoiner rejoinder prisoner concealer revelator. Look at it, rising up and rising down, taking everything with it."
"What's that?" I asked.
"Water," said the Dutchman. "Well, and time."

It's the perfect start to the book.

Hazel, the main character of The Fault in Our Stars, lives and breathes An Imperial Affliction. She's read it probably a hundred times. She travels to Amsterdam with Augustus Waters to find the book's long lost author, Peter Van Houten.

An Imperial Affliction is not an actual book.

You can imagine me, full of the buzz you get when you finish a really good book, sitting at the computer and googling over and over again: An Imperial Affliction. Peter Van Houten. Sitting in disbelief that this wonderful thing does not, in all actuality, exist on the face of the earth.

People design covers for it all the time.It's kind of real now because we know what it's about and what it might look like, but we will not know how Hazel felt when she read it the first time, because we can not read it the first time ourselves. Constantly googling pictures of covers others had designed, I did not feel fulfilled. Of course, I still won't because I have not read the actual book An Imperial Affliction because it does not exist.

Something was missing from my bookshelf.

So I made it. Sort of.





Of course, it's just the dust jacket. The pages inside do not tell the story of Anna. The narrative doesn't end in the middle of a sentence like it's 

But I think it is happy with my other books. And I designed the whole thing all by myself and without using a computer once. So I win.



Monday, July 8, 2013

The Pool

I stood in line with my cousin Andy who is my age to go off the diving board.

"You know, papa used to do flips off these," he said.

"Really? Wow."

"At least that's what grandma Judy said."

"You know today is his birthday?"

"Man, nobody ever tells me anything!"

"Yup. July 7th. 7-7. I think he was born in 1947 or something," I said.

"I wish he was here."

"Me too."

Saturday, June 29, 2013

awesome stuff I've recently made

My wall collage is almost done. I've been working on it for like a year since I moved my room to the basement and it has been really fun to just work on it when I'm bored. Now I  just have to finish a couple pieces of art I'm working on so I can hang them up!
(Left to right from the top: dichotamus key to benthic macroinvetebrates, watercolor painting from at class in March 2012, flag of Nerdfighteria, My Neighbor Totoro Thingy, cardioid, 3D papercraft ampersand [&], TFiOS cover, [blue w/ clouds], color pencil tree drawing, my name in3D papercraft typography, owls, swirls, triangle sharpie drawing inspired by Vihart, DFTBA collage, Richard Feynman collage, various lines are Washi tape. This will probably have a post of its own soon.)

Necklaces! So Karen Kavett is a graphic designer that makes awesome videos on YouTube. The necklaces were inspired by her a lot. I made this ampersand necklace with a bottle cap, but couldn't really wear it because the cap wasn't heavy enough to keep it from flopping all over.


A couple days ago I went over to my friend Fiona's house for a sleepover. We made some charms out of beads and old buttons. I was really happy with how they turned out, but I already have a gazillion key chains.


So…



I love them! I think my favorite one might be the one that says loud/big on the bead (they have words on both sides). 

I love making awesome stuff!

Tuesday, May 28, 2013

Hi.
I hate how I keep writing about what I'm going to write. But I do. I'm sorry. I really do want to write more on here. It was a really great homework journaling year and I think I might your youe of these up. And maybe I'll do more this summer. What do you want me to write about? I know there are like three of you, so I can write whatever you suggest. Our I can write whatever strikes my fancy. I really don't know. maybe I should come up with a schedule to force myself to write during the summer once a week. Maybe I'll do all of these things. I think I will probably type up some of my journal entries because a lot of them were pretty good from this year. But yeah. School gets our June 6 so maybe you'll hear from me after that.